Mama of BooksAugust 6th, 2012
OMG I’m pregnant again! Having been pregnant before, I notice the symptoms immediately. You would think that at this age this wouldn’t happen to me. I admit that I haven’t taken any precautions because…well…I am of a certain age. Still, I feel a new life growing in me and I know that I will nurture it until it is born. Then there is the getting it raised.
My problem with being pregnant again is that I still have three toddlers at home. The twins M’TK Sewer Rat: End of an Empire and M’TK Sewer Rat: Birth of a Nation are driving me up the wall. They grew so big so fast. Now I am trying to separate them for part of the time, which isn’t easy. Still they need to develop separate identities and some level of independence. They will always be twins and I hope they will share friends. They are strong enough, but sometimes they lack the energy we expect of toddlers. I think with some good food and nurturing they will be ready for the excitement of the great big world soon enough, if I do not devote all my time and energy to a new baby.
Unlike the twins, who demand a great deal of energy and cause all sorts of trouble, sweet little Something About Maudy is complacent and happy to wait for my attention. She seems to be happy whatever I do. I confess I ignored Maudy for ten months while pregnant with the twins. She seemed to grow and blossom without much effort. However, she has not spent as much time in the editor’s office as the twins. I fear that if she did get a full examination I would find that she has suffered from the neglect. I still find her occasionally lisping into passive voice. I do spend time in speech therapy with her. I suppose Maudy is like any other child with twins for younger siblings. She has learned to survive with very little nurturing.
Of course, Lies That Bind still requires hours of my attention. As parents we think that getting our children off to school will give us hours of free time, which just isn’t what happens. We have parent/teacher meetings and piano lessons and soccer games. Lies is no different than any other active child. She does reasonably well in school. She seems to play well with others and remains in the top five to ten percent in her class. I am excited about her adventures in Africa. I would like her math scores to be a little higher, but they are good enough. I spend hours on the internet helping Lies make new friends and checking up on her activities to be certain she is getting the experiences to be the best she can be.
Last week, an exploitive pervert accosted Lies That Bind on the playground. At least I strongly suspect that was an exploitive pervert. Another parent alerted me to the presence of an unauthorized person on the playground. I alerted as many parents as I could. One of the fathers started a serious investigation. By the end of the week the father reported to the rest of us that the pervert seemed to have disappeared leaving a forwarding address of 404 Error Street.
So you see, I still have to devote hours and hours of energy to Lies That Bind while the twins run me ragged and I really do need to get dear Maudy ready for the great big world. I just don’t see how I have the time and energy to devote to another pregnancy. However, the symptoms are real. In the back of my mind I have visions of a forest fire and the desolation it leaves behind. I know poor Jeannie is not strong enough to lose everything she owns so soon after losing the love of her life. I worry that facing all this loss and dealing with a corrupt building department at the county level will send her into weeping, screaming hysterics. Will she find someone to help her?